Back to Work :(

I officially started back to work on Monday and honestly Monday was not all that bad, Tuesday, however was not so good. On Monday morning it was exciting to get up, get ready for work and be back with my work colleagues and feeling like there is something else to my life besides being Everett's mom. But by Tuesday, the novelty had worn off and all I could think about was not being with Everett! We are nanny sharing with a great family who has a little guy four days older than Everett and luckily, we hired a great nanny, Gloria, who has been a nanny for 20 years and was the nanny for my co-worker's twins when they were little, so she knows what she is doing and we trust her. Also, I have gone back on a reduced schedule (no work on Friday and "working" from home on Wednesday), so I cannot complain too much. It just breaks my heart knowing that Everett is being cared for by someone else, what if he is sad, hungry, or just needs to be held? When I envisioned my life as a mom, I always thought I would be a stay at home mom, however, I did not envision living in DC with a gigantic mortgage :) I know it will just be a transition, and hopefully someday our circumstances change so I can be home full time with my kids, but now, I am going to make the best of the situation and be thankful that I have such a wonderful job with great flexibility and good friends. Also, it will be nice to get out of mommy mode once in a while and practice law again. Now if Gloria can just work her magic and get my little guy on a napping schedule :) Good luck to her!!